Learn to trust urself before trusting others...

So yeah. Didn't blog so much nowadays as I'm busy with all the piles of hw. So yeah I decided to switch to this blog since my previous blog wasn't that nice ); LOL. Well, happened a lot of stuff in skul these few weeks. Diffrent emotions of me also.. I cried, I broke down till very badly,I felt left out, I was pissed off and other more. In fact I felt Bad.. Imagined someone whom is ur good friend just becos do not want to get scolded and push all the blame to her good friend and that Cher left a bad impression of her. I mean like c'mon u r already 14 stop being so childish if u did it too than admit it. U won't die right? And plus u did wrong things too right? So what for point at others? What's ur problem? For heaven sake, anything u wanna say? Shoot directly at her face not backstabbing and betraying her. And don't effing be a two faced kay.

If u don't wanna get into trouble, fine. Look at what u did first. If u did nth wrong no one would blame u. But if u did too what for complaining? U said that she teach u bad words? Like as if she really wAnna teach u? I mean that is ur influence level right? So many other people does it too so how can u blame it on her. And get the fact right SHE DID NOT TEACH U. And pls it takes two hands to clap. So yeah, if u want it this way it's best that me and her stay far apart from youh and stop talking to u for a while. AND SAYING A SORRY IT'S NOT MUCH USE OK. We won't have police and others if sorry can settle everything and cover all ur wrongs alright? So yeah. Bye nights I'm sleeping. And yeah hey. Think about it alrights. Don't point at others first look at urself. If u r none other better, than just shut up. -.-

Happiness is what everyone wants for ....

Friday <3 17022012 today. But sadly i broke down due to some reasons... Well friendship and sistership can really tear u terribly apart. But luckily, my dearest friend farhana a.k.a goreng pisang gave me advices and talk to be for the whole 20 mins. I mean is like after i broke down and after her comforting i felt really a whole lot better. THKS girl <3 Well, hadn't been quite good these days. But i can advise is to eat chocolates if u r feeling down. It helps a lot. My friend gave me one and i kinda feel btr after eating it... Well enuf of my part. Have a great weekends everyone <3

Words that can't be explained by itself....

Hey guys. Im back with a new posts.. Well prayers did answered my call (,: So yeah we did patch. But the sistership is kinda shakey still.... I will first start with last time while i was still in sec 1. Indeed i admit i don't good memories and even memories i would like to rmb from primary school. I have only just a few friends, ppl hated me for who my attitude, ppl spread rumours abt me , ppl backstab me,betray me , used me and after they reached what they want they throw me aside like rubbish. When i was about going to graduate from p6, i kept on thinking positive i keep telling myself that i am going out from hell.... after getting my results i went to a school that i would not be able to see them.... There were many moments i felt a pathetic loner and just a tool to many ppl..... So yeah i decided to change myself so that was when i met perlyn in pyss.... But i am still the same time. Sometimes i felt that i'm still a tool to her as she had her bff with her then.... Im like a total extra cos im afraid if i get too close to her her best friend would hate me and say im stealing her... I WAS EFFING STILL THE SAME. i cnt keep secrets... And sometimes i really felt a true loner when im in pyss during jan-march. And i rmb that one time perlyn was damn angry with me and was like "SHUT THE FCK UP. WTF. That's why i dont wanna tell u. I hate u!" this was thru sms but i felt like bursting into tears at that time....I totally felt like a bitch. So yeah after a few more incidents, i went with this girl, yoko. In fact, i felt that i really did wrong to her.... SHE'S a nice girl.... A very fine girl till she met her bf. No offence yoko, but if u happen to read this i have to admit i really dislike ur bf i know he dislike me too. But srsly i cnt stand him. But since he is ur choice last long then...Im sure u also dislike me too yeah.... But i would really like to say... yes sorry i have my wrongs too. i admit i talk bad about u but is bcos there are some things abt u i dont like thats y.... Im afraid if i say it infront of u u would be hurt. Plus i trusted u thats y i told u my secrets but in the end everybody knew it. idk whether is u or not becos i only told u and perlyn. But perlyn would not say srsly she has been with me like all the time but im not with u...


Thats y i dare not tell u my secrets but i did kept secrets of urs. SRSLY i swear. I DID NOT SPREAD YEAH. but i heard from others saying i dumped u after i patched with perlyn but pls..... U did not really go out with me after u were with him and u always went on date with him alone... Im like..... wth. but sooner or ltr i patch with perlyn and u went with him. FAIR isnt it? Im not a heartless person.... Though i aint close with u but u r a nice girl. (: Thx for the memories girl (: WELL back to the topic, and also perlyn i hope u r reading this yo. Girl, sorry if i left u alone ok. I already cut down talking to cash already but we r just only good friends k.Hope youh r not jealous..... Sowwie anyway.... Urm and also rmb we r going on a date this sunday ok? Tampines <3 Haish.... Life is totally unfair... there are words u dare not to say, betrayers that stab u from behind, fake friends who leave u at ur darkest hours and also use u as tools. I will changes in fact i did.... Haters can just get a life of theirs.. Ur comments arent needed. I aint born for u to judge neither to please youh. Bye.

The scar that will be left forever..

 Well, today sure wasn't a day... I quarreled with one of my most loving person... This time sure it was my fault. But since blogger is one of my way to express my feelings i would just dedicate my "letter" to my dearest bff. -Hey girl, I'm sorry for everything i have done for these few weeks in skul.. so yeah, i would start with the left out thing.. Yes, I admit i did left u alone sometimes when im talking to the rest but u must understand in my heart i still cared for youh. Rmb the other time when youh walked the other direction. And even i'm busy talking with the rest i was like where r u? until i saw u walking down another staircase wif "Hana" I did feel a little jealous as u know sometimes i just wanna tell youh although i'm talking with the rest but the feeling isnt the same when im talking with u compared with them... i feel more comfortable talking to youh as i know u r a person whom i trust most... [,: I will take note of it okay? Secondly the helping thing and problem. Yes....  Sometimes when u tell me ur problems i wasnt there to lend youh a helping hand... But i did try my best.... Alright sometime mayb i shld give in too... My attitude i know it best. I promised I would nvr let u faced ur problems alone. And also just tell me ur problems i would definitely try my very best to help u alright? i dont wanna let these particular "her" problem to drift our friendship for 1 year plus ... (': Here are some of our memories pics since last year <3 I miss us last year </3 Laughing like some mad ppl... Share our secrets tgth.. always h2h talk tgth... I really missed them....

Hey. Know what? Living in a life filled with imaginations ain't great yeah. After waking up, i have to still deal with this reality world... Its soon i guess i have to learn to appreciate. First of all i would like to introduce this two besties and sisters of mine who helped me thru thick and thin no matter what i did. Support me for everything i have done. Hui Yi and Perlyn (: Thx to them my life were added with colours <3 hehs thx guys ^^        Love ya babes <3 So yeah btr start finishing my hw TTwTT It's effing terrible as there's really hell much hw given by the chers!!!!! If not ltr i needa burned midnight oil on Sunday. Its much more worser. So i might as well do it todayyy. I will come back blogging soon yeah! Maybe tmr or even tonight's midnight :O HEHS. Bye guys. Nites and sweet dreams <3